"I am determined that someone out there will love me for who I am."
You used to be kind.
You used to be nice.
You used to be somewhat an “Angel” in my life.
You used to be my lover.
You used to be my forever guy.
Then you dumped me.
You broke my heart.
Then you blocked me.
I was nothing but air to you.
I used to blame myself for the relationship to end.
But now, after all the childish acts you have done.
I shall stop blaming myself because me and my mental illness were just the easy reasons for you to dump me.
A real man will stand by me.
A real man will not leave a person he loves when she is sick.
A real man will stay.
A real man will not let a sickness, an illness get in the way from his lover.
(This is the same for ladies)
So, ladies and gentlemen, if you have experienced such a breakup like me whereby your supposed “better-half” left you and gave the reason that it was your mental illness and that it was you because he was scared of you, well, let me tell you this.
HE/SHE does not deserve you.
I know, there are times whereby I would wonder who would actually love a person like me. A girl with M.D.D. But I am here to tell you what I have been told by a lot of people, “Someone will love you. Someone will come by and that someone will make your ex feel like he/she is a true coward.”
Cause what I know is that, for people like me, when we say we love someone, we mean it. So, when we get our heart shattered, I know how painful it is. No matter how hard you try to heal, it will take time. Even when months have passed or years, even, there will be time when something will somehow come back and hit you to remind you of him/her. I know. But do not let them be the reason why you should end your life. Trust me, it is not worth it.
So yeah, I am a girl with M.D.D. I am not planning to keep it as a secret because I truly believe that I was given this talent in writing and the encouragements I get from people around who loves me for a reason and that reason was for me to spread the word and tell people that having mental illness is okay. We can recover.
So, here’s the deal, I am determined that someone out there will love me for who I am. That someone will love me with my M.D.D. He will be proud to walk by me through this M.D.D. journey. For now, I am healing my heart, writing out my journey, spreading mental health awareness, helping people like me, helping to remove the stigma, and most importantly, love myself endlessly.
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