"Even in love relationships there are many things and facts that we choose to believe and don’t want to believe. That’s how it is for me."
It’s what I see as parts of love relationships despite the love one has for the other being very deep. At some point in the relationship, one refuses to believe and deny what is happening or about to happen to the relationship they are in. Denying or choosing to believe what might be the coming truth indeed makes us afraid.
Sometimes the truth may already be in front of our eyes or it’s coming but it is us who refuse to believe and see it. We chose to deny it but deep inside us, our instincts and inner voices already know it. The only thing that stands in our way of seeing it is our own personalities. As for you and I, that was just the case because we refused to believe that it would soon be all gone. Fate was decided and it tried to tell us, we even saw it coming but not once did we choose to open our hearts and minds to the truth. As a couple, we should have known better because if we had opened our hearts and minds to let the truth into our relationship, we would’ve found the best way to hold it back together which we kept on trying but only to see our efforts all being blown away merely because we refused to accept the truth. But now, it’s really time that we see and accept it. The fire of love we lit inside our relationship is dying out. While I on the other hand, just cannot believe I’m saying this but, we’re out of chances to keep this relationship and to hold on to each other.
For as much as I can see and as far as I can see it, I sincerely hope you’ll see it that way too. Not to say you’re not good enough for me or to lead you to think that I never loved or valued you but, for you to see it is for your own good. Merely so you won’t need to hang on to me only to end up hurting yourself. I only want you to know that you and I were always good together except we never found the right ways to overcome all the obstacles and circumstances that came in between us which was just why we couldn’t last together. We continued giving each other chances after chances but we never really did own up to our faults completely by taking them as just ordinary flaws and letting it pass just like that.
Believe me when I say I understand it’s going to be hard for you to release your grip because it is for me as well. However, I know that step by step we take every day we will eventually find the way out of this and carry on with our lives. So I hereby let go and my only hope for you is that you’ll be happy now, then and throughout the rest of your life. Although you can’t be a hundred percent happy, I hope you won’t let life’s downsides tie you down in continuing to seek happiness from every part of your life as coming across unpleasant moments that can hurt are all part of living your life.
Since I have chosen to let go, I really hope that you have chosen to do the same not for us but only for yourself. Even though we’ve chosen to let go, I still tend to think that our relationship could have made it to the next level if we had seen those flaws in it earlier and chose to act the right way. Had we done so, we could have held on to each other up to today and no doubt our bond between each other would have grown even stronger. Through this encounter, what I got to see was that it’s indeed pure insanity sometimes when it comes to love considering it can fade so fast while also build up the feeling in just a nick of time.
Human’s feelings can change completely just like that and what’s crazier is that some even change without clear or specific reasons. The feeling of love just fades like dried leaves of a tree being easily carried away by a small gust of wind. Even the promises that lovers made to each other on the very day of confessing their love might not actually last or even be fulfilled.
The future is exceedingly unpredictable and lovers who are unable to keep or fulfill each other’s promises is undoubtedly one of the things that can hurt real bad leaving both broken on the inside which is just the kind of situation we got ourselves into. I still remember the day we confessed our love we had for one another and we even made the promise saying we’ll hold on to each other to reach the best together. Except now, those promises are all but fulfilled and meaningful. It’s left in the past.
However, despite being put in situations like this in our lives, it does not give us any reason to no longer look towards the future. No reason for us to open our hearts to love again.
Because everyone deserves to be happy with whatever or whoever makes them happy and whenever or wherever they find their happiness from, no one should attempt to remove their happiness from their lives. It is never within the right of anybody to ruin one another’s happiness merely because they haven’t found their own.
For us, even if searching for our happiness needs us to break apart from each other, then that will be the only way out for both of us. As much as it may hurt us, we still need to let go of one another or else we’ll never be able to find our happiness anywhere due to holding on to something that is too late to be changed. It’s like tying ourselves to a motionless rock in the middle of the woods where no one can see or hear us. When it comes to a love relationship, there must be commitment and trust but what’s most crucial to the relationship is that both sides must make and find happiness from it. Relationships without happiness are like receiving empty gift boxes. You thought you really got what you wanted but once you have it, you find out that it isn’t actually pleasuring you or giving you any values.
It is all for yours and my sake that both of us choosing to go this way will be the only way that is rightful for you and I. The only thing I truly want you to know and be able to see is that I am doing so merely because I still value your happiness and the smile on your face even though I may never be able to see again after this with you leaving my life completely.
You have your life to live while I have mine. You truly deserve all the happiness there possibly is in this world. So, there you see it. I am doing this for both of us but mainly for you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart, from head to toe and my soul for coming into my life. I hope you’ll be happy every now and then.
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